St. Louis Wedding and Portraiture Photography - Pinxit

I am a daddys girl.

I offer no apologies about that. My mother has stated my father may not have been the best husband but he was a good father to us, and I totally agree. In my childhood - which I admit was longer than average, my father could do very little wrong. Still can’t if I am honest with myself.  Now as an adult and looking at my father as a man I can see his imperfections and they don’t affect my love for him. Even in decisions I disagree with I can typically see my fathers reasoning, and understand. With my parents divorce I was honest about my disapointment in the decisions that were made - and was able to move on easily. I don’t see my father nearly as much as I would like, that fault lies evenly between us. I hoped for a son so perhaps I would see him more often the way I knew a daughter would bridge the space between my mother and I. When I was house hunting

I am being interviewed by St. Louis working mom, and she asks some interesting questions…  

1. Why St. Louis? Actually I was born here - and there is something in the water that keeps me from leaving, actually I think thats just my mom who doesn’t remember throwing a fit when I mentioned possibly moving to Vegas to become a teacher. Now, as of late I really like my city - I hated being from St. Louis for a long time, but Then I met m y husband and he helped me see so much of hte city I just hadn’t seen before. It still needs alot of work , St. Louis that is, but its come a long way.

2. When will we see you publish a book of poetry? Gheesh. Dude. At this rate? I can’t see it happening anymore. I miss poetry, I really do. And this may sound sad, It feels sad to even write it,

Okay - I was honestly not going to blog on this topic at all. And then on Oprah early this week, Russell Simmons kept referring to Rappers as Poets. May i interject that I have a vast amount of respect for Mr. Simmons however…

um. how about - No.

How about, I am a poet, and I can’t rap - I have turned down many a producer who tried to make me a rapper cause frankly, I can’t rap, and just cause your raps happen to rhyme it don’t make you a poet- so- Directly to Mr Russell Simmons,
just cause you put a rapper on every episode of Def Poetry Jam doesn’t make them any more than a Rapper on a poetry show, a marketing tool, they AREN’T POETS, its insulting to lump me in a category with a bunch of people who know nothing about

At seven thirty this morning my father called to wish me a happy birthday - hard to believe your kid is turning thirty, I told him. I’ll be fifty seven when Cam turns thirty. Makes me shiver just thinking about it.

i’m not sure what I have to say about the big three oh yet - doesn’t feel any different than 25 did. Only I got kids, and a mortgage, and a husband. So maybe it IS a bit different, who knows. I shall reflect more later- Right now my kid is trying to JACK my computer. I thought I had at least five more years before that would happen.

 

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Alot of you don’t know that I am a wedding photographer.

i’ve been shooting weddings as a serious amature/semi professional shooter since I was about fifteen, and actually if you know anybody who is getting married I’d love to shaadow their paid photograhper for free, but that is neither here nor there.
I have shot probably thirty weddings and watched the debachery unfold with a chuckle and shake of the head. Everything from bridezillas to psycho inlaws, and at a wedding I wasn’t the photograhper for - the limo service burned down.
As a result at some point I decided I wanted to marry in a beach ceremony. I figured with enough notice, anybody who wanted to be there could. And we could have a wedding party/reception when we got back. (we never got around to that)
So when it actually came to really planning my wedding some of me wanted to do the big fluffy wedding but there was no guarentee that it would not become the psycho event I had witnessed countless times from the sidelines.