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Monthly Archives: October 2008
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SUCKATUDE
October 22, 2008 – 9:28 am
Okay so I suck at the whole post before bed thing. But I am posting now. I went to the bloggers guild meeting and then swung by a open mic before heading home to work on some images. Can I start by saying - DUDE Shockcity studios is off the MICKYFLIPPIN CHAIN! okay that is all. I almost wish I was a musician so I would have the excuse to need to be there. Any who.
Apparently every Tuesday at Jazz on the Bistro on Washington Av there is an open mic. Says showstarts at 8:30 sharp but that was the unsharpest sharp time ever. Bistro is still one of my most favorite spots in the city for performing and just chillin out. But last night reminded me wht I love about an open mic and what I don’t. I had sort of forgotten the rules.
The rules of open mic is fairly simple. Remember its a gamble. The open mic is really a slot machine. And the best mic is when the slot is loose. You put in your cover charge and hit the jackpot 4 or 5 times, everything is clicking the energy is good and you hear some good poetry. But thats the best mic - most nights mics are filled with some bravado, poems written for dating purposes, and people who don’t read poetry but write from deep places. peices half memorized and rewritten on napkins. Where you build comradery and community. And that has to be enough - the rule is you can’t want too much from an open mic, I’m trying to learn that. Its hard for me, but I miss it more than I remember so I am goin out again, and for that it was good enough for me.
I do want to say the band was wonderful, their were a few singer song writers who came up and the band backed them beautifully. It was truly well done. Black Spade was there performing, he also gave me permission to use some of his work on my website so that wsa major for me. I love his work, have for ten years. So it was nice to see a familiar face, I saw a few actually, so I felt a little less like a new kid inthe room, perhaps I’ll get around to reading again soon. Just a note there were more men at this event than I’ve ever seen. Beautful specimins. I look forward to going back again.
Maybe I’ll see you there - Also - here are some shots I posted from SoulStage which is a Wed Night poetry event here in St. Louis.
Still here..mostly
October 21, 2008 – 9:18 am
So I am still here I have decided that everynight before bed I’ll be posting - if I can get one in duringhte day as well then I will but its not like I’m going to bed before one am anyway so whats another half an hour? I’ve been bustin my butt trying to get my world together before the new year. Getting some test marketing materials done, my online presence beefed up - revamping the blog - AGAIN- and trying to decide is wedding/bridal show is the way to go for me. Its an interesting time in the wonderful world of PInxit Photo.
Thanks for hangin in - its gonna be a bumpy ride!
In the nights dawn
October 8, 2008 – 11:48 am
I don’t sleep a whole lot lately, or it doesn’t feel like much sleep. Mostly I get caught - knocked on my arse really, more of a back hand by the Sandman when taking Bri up to her bed at night, or cuddling with Cammy. Jerry and I spend countless nights on the opposite end of the house both elbow deep in computere screens, then one of us usually giving up before the other and slinking off to bed alone. Lately I have been the one going to say hey I’m going up to bed only to find his chair empty, lights off, doors locked. It always throws me when hes not where I expect him to be.
I know what it is to miss someone who is thrity feet away.
I climb into bed, my mind still working on what ever I just left, that last session, the next picture. Trying to turn it all off yet still thinking about the next thing, the next step and it never takes long before my mind slips into the ‘what the heybob are you doing’ stage of my night, and I spend the next little while verbally sparring with myself.
Then, usually, Jerry reaches his arm out in his sleep and pulls me across what moments ago might as well been a hundred miles of bedsheets and becomes my comforter. It always surprises me, I don’t know why. I can sit here and tell you that it happens more often than not, I should know it is coming. Just like I know he loves me. Just like I know misses me too.
But I never do and every time it happens it always causes this happy little gurgle in my belly that throws a litlle jerry filled pebble into the pond of stuff I bring to bed with me, giving me the room to find the peace I need for sleep.
* I realise that this too isn’t my post about Bri’s birthday - its coming people I swear.
Um.. Just a thought…
October 8, 2008 – 9:31 am
Reading is Fundamental.
I know I got a lot of people who read this blog. A whole lot. I don’t know you all, shoot most of you, I know that too. That being said. If you see something on this blog that you personally feel is out of line, I would expect that you would owe me the courtsey of an email (Raquita at gmail dot com) or leaving a comment with your concern. But reguarding your concern, I don’t want this to rub anyone the wrong way but I graduated highschool in ‘95, and there is no one you can ‘tell on me’ to. I carry myself with as much intergrity and honor as I can personally muster - my job is a gift, something I hold very close to my heart and beleive requires me to be the abolute best person I can - and I do my damnedest to be that everyday for my children, my family, and my God. Even that effort does not make me worthy of that honor, so your actions - your assumtption that I would disgrace my job, disgreguard that which is entrusted to me was seriously insulting.
I am the WOBL in this piece.
If you had read the entire post you were so concerned about you would have seen you have no reason to be concerned.
READING IS FUNDAMENTAL.
Try it, seriously, we don’t allow TLDR around these here parts.
so much for daily posting
October 7, 2008 – 1:11 pm
Several people have told me I hold it all together well.
It takes all of my self control not to burst into giggly hysterics when people say that to me. If I really know the person and like them alot - I do laugh cause I don’t pull punches with the people I know and love. I started this blog entry and I was going to say how it is hard, and how if you could see on my inside you’d see a swirling vortex of matter I’m still trying to figure out how to form into something solid and flexable and real and mine.
But the truth is, yesterday I got a call. Last minute session at Barnes - could I make it? Yes. I went home made chicken pot pie and mise en place’d the carrot cake my daughter wanted to make and asked her daddy to help her mix it up for me. I wanted to stay with my kid and bake a cake, I really did. Instead, last night I did my first session with NILMDTS, and I will carry that little boy with me forever. So much of that was pointless, not the images - but the loss. I went home and I touched my kids, made cream cheese icing with Cammy and iced the Carrot cake she made with her daddy, ate a late dinner.
The rest seems so simple. The swiriling vortex seems like a spring breeze. The wind is not mine to tame. It is not ours to tame. I remember that now. Everything is coming together. It will all come, its its right time. My next post will be about my little-est joys birthday - shes is one now - more on that tomorrow, and the day after that I hope I have time to introduce you all to the beauty you see above. My Couisn, who is more like my brother had his first child last week - that is her. You will see more of her, alot more of her in the coming weeks, alive and beautiful, welcome to the world JC.
Back- One blog entry at a time….
October 1, 2008 – 11:58 am
Things have been hectic around me, most of it is my own doing - I can admit that. Reaping what one sows and all that good jazz. As a woman of faith, substance and I pray most days of virtue, I am working hard to get past treading water and staying afloat to getting to a place of comfort for my family. The photography is moving -sometimes it feels like its all moving like molasses to me, others its like a river rapids, but I am blessed that I can say its moving. Its been moving so much blogging slipped just a little bit, between the FUBAR status with the site a few weeks back to actually processing and delivering images, developing the new site, working on new blog template, being the mom, the interactive festival, Bris birthday, Cammys new school - which requires more energy for us as parents, and my daily wifery and mommydom, the blog got lost in the shuffle. Alas it is back. I will be posting a bunch of entries to get all caught up and back on track. LEts start with what is important - my family.
The family is moving, shifting into this new space. These pictures are from Cammys first day of school. If you notice she isn’t facing mein either photo- she was *poof* gone once we got out of the car. She never looked back. She was ready to go.
Cammy is loving school.
Shes Ripping through learning nursery rhymes and stories like her life depended on it. Shes turning into the kid I knew she would be - rapidly leaving all of baby Cammy in the dust.
Sometimes I miss baby Cammy.
Lately, it seems like I can only find her in the middle of the night when shes sleeping, and I climb into her bed and cuddle and tell her how much I love her, or when she climbs in my bed and curls into me, I get to remember she wasn’t always such a little spit fire, we she was, she was just a smaller version.
School is going well. She really is like a little sponge, FLYING through information and books, she can spell her name, recognize lots of words, her sentence structure is better than mine I would guess. She loves her teachers and class mates, I really feel like we made the right choice for her in our school selection. Which is a great feeling.
She’s settled into her big sister role. She sat on Bri the first time this week. Jerry flipped out,and all I could think was, “I know I sat on Rock and Nata, shoot and cousin John every free opportunity I got.” Bri still adores her, likes to push her around the living room area on the little riding car Bri got for her 1st birthday (full post coming soon). They are total YIN and YANG.
Speaking of Yang (like that segway?) Um, I was LOVING the Greys Anatomy season 5 premier -even if it took me almost a week and a half to sit down and watch it. It is fall, my personal favorite season, and that means- leaves changing colors, and soups, and sweaters, and new TV, new Private Practice, new Chuck, new Entourage, new Brothers and Sisters, new - who wants to bet I don’t even get close to watching all the shows I’ll have TIVO’d!?!?
Moving on. I’ll be posting more this week. Probably daily til I get all caught up. Thanks for waiting me out, I missed you all.