Monthly Archives: January 2009
which doesn’t mean a whole lot in my world, wellit means no day job for two days which is a plus but Jerrys got a software release for his job this weekend and Cammys got some birthday parites and I am waiting for product to be delivered for a few clients as I have my laptop back and I am preparing to give Spoken back hers. I really want to make margaritas tonight and eat guacamole and warm chips and maybe that white melted cheese youc an only get at mexican restaurants. Well you can buy it for a zillion dollars at schnucks but its a zillion dollars. Or you go to the mexican spot and get a bowl of it for four bucks, and a margarita.
Eitehr way – tequillais in my future and I have alot of stuff swiriling around on teh business front and with the family, my dad is getting closer to his move to Chicago -(to my Chicago Brides.. you want that to happen so my travel costs drop a smidge..) My girls are happy that their GiGi is back from DC and shes excited and wants to start a blog - so that is a project for this weekend as well.
I can’t complain my life is wonderful. How is yours guys?
I just wanted to do a quick stop in to say hello. I am trying to move slower, in more delberate steps, as to waste less energy and time and be more complete. Jerrys mom has started Chemo and said it makes her feel better – she liked the people she met there and things are progressing wonderfully. SO we are praying that it does what it needs to do. She and Jerry are spending more time talking, and hopefully we’ll have her over for dinner in the near future.
My mom is on her way to the inaugration of our 44th president. Shes totally excited. We are excited for her. Next I have to pick a sesssion date in Baltimore, I would love to make this a two-fer, any takers in the B-more/Philly area?
It is a rare thing that I am okay with a short weekend. This one for me was extrememly short by all measurements. I spent a large chunk of my weekend working on both jobs, went to the day job at 6 am saturday to kick in some over time then when home and picked up the family and headed out to the Magic House, the new expansion was open and we really enjoyed it. Perhaps its cause I heard so many bad things about it, and after being there I am really surprised about it – but it was really nice I particularly like the way they spread everythig out so it feels like there is less stuff but really its just less children climbing all over you to get to stuff. Which is AWESOME.
A lady told Bri not to eat bubbles while my back was turned and when I turned around she got all apologetic. I’m like lady its alright, you’re right shes not supposed to eat the bubble solution. I’m not gonna get all mama bear on you. It takes a village and all that good jazz.
I’ve been told I am intimidating in certian circles, It must be true cause bubble solution lady looked like I was about to put her in a figure four head lock or something. I would have hugged her if I thought she wouldn’t have jumped out of her skin if I tried to touch her. I really must figure out how to turn that into what I always hope comes across. I always want to come across as confident and self assure, because mostly I am. I rarely want intimidating to be the vibe people get from me.
Anywho.
After the magic house we stopped and got Cammy some new shoes, she did the new shoe dance for 45 minutes after we got home. I mention this because when you buy a happy kid shoes with lights on them they stomp around incesantly untill you suggest taking of said shoes and sitting on the couch and watching TV. Which was a cop out on my part. We’ve cut our TV time down conciderably in our house, a few days a week we simply don’t turn it on. We play boardgames and read and play with the million toys in the house, but Saturday, I was happy to allow Oswald to entertain the troops for hte last stretch of the evening.
Sunday I went to visit another Church. I am still actively in the hunt and went alone this week leaving Jerry to the joys of playoff football and the girls. I went to visit at the Journey, which has a campus close to my house, also has a Kids church which is important to Cammy. The major downer is of my two major desires for a church and my third minor one they don’t exactly hit any of them on the head. I want to find a church that is not homophobic, and doesn’t lean heavy on the acoustic guitar for worship music, i.e I need some gospel music in my life, and has an active reflection of people of color both in the parishioners and the church leadership. I’ll let you decide which two are major and which is minor.
As a friend of mine pointed out so eloquently on Sunday night. “You can’t have gospel music and the church be not homophobic – embrace the acoustic guitar!!! Its the lesser of the two evils.” How ever it amuses me, not in a ha ha sort of way but in a ironic sort of way that a church that is trying to bridge a cultural gap doesn’t see how music would be the instant divider and or uniter.
But I have decided that I’m willing to over look that as I can go get the WOW Gospel collection and get my fix on the drive to and fro. But I live five minutes from that church so maybe not. But I hope they check their incoming links and consider this suggestion that one Sunday a month they could switch up the music and get a choir in there and increase their people of color instantly. There is something about a group of people “harmoniously” raising their voices. Always gives me chills.
Just pointing out the obvious.
Because other wise I really enjoyed the pastor and the sermon, I like the candor in which the campus minster discussed their church with me. I like the ideals they want to stand on.
After Church it was prep time for the week, did some laundry, made dinner and lunch stuff for Monday, washed the kids coats and bed sheets – changed linnens, played more games, got to watch the last two episodes of Private Practice. Its is quickly replacing Greys as my much watch TV, cause seriously, can we just rekill Denny and get it over with.
I will post more later this week, Spoken loaned me a laptop so I am gonna get my sessions up on line asap, just gotta load some software on there and get it goin. I leave you with the Rooster that lives in my mothers neighborhood, I don’t remember if I posted this before – but hte fact that there is a Rooseter in the CWE just tickles me.
When I started this photography thing – like decided to go to the next level with it. I attacked it like I attack all things. Methodically. I poured tons of research into figuring out what it was I truly wanted to do. Its how I do everything. When I was deciding whether to join my good friend who wanted to open a bakery (as my second love is cooking and baking- BTW I want to slide a big congrats to Reine for chasing her dream and catching it, ) I read and researched everything I could about the time investment, what I would need to do to make myself feel safe in launching that business, what successful shops looked like across the country – took culinary classes, read business plans, everything I could think of to decide if that was the dream I wanted to chase. I think I figured out rather early in the chase that it wasn’t my dream, not the big one. I think I wanted to help Reine reach her dreams, and I genuinely enjoy baking, and would not have been a bad way to spend a career. But its hard to sacrifice for someone else’s dream, hard to put your family in a tight place. So it became important to find my dream.
When people ask me – and they have – how did I decide this was truly what I wanted to do. I told them that I thought back to the jobs I had that never felt like work – that I would do for free. And it always came back to photography. Most specifically wedding photography. Shoot, I DID do it for free for the very longest time. So I began the research all over again, shot a few more weddings, put the hat back on to see if this one fit better, and it did.
I am going thru allof this in my mind because since yesterday time has become a very important comodity in my world. If you follow me on Twitter or Facebook, then you may have heard, my mother in law has been diagnosised with Cancer. Her options are few, time is not on our side. She has had a difficult walk, from what I have been able to gather. This is just another fight to her – she has not crumbled and seems more ajitated and frustrated with her body than angry or sad. Some times she seems resolved and determined to use her time her way. She has hugged my kids more, touched her son more. And I find myself proud of her, as if I have any right to that feeling, but it is there. My husband and his mother do not have a pretty history, it is littered with large gaps and silence in too many spaces, but they both seem resolved to find some footing given these recent developements.
He makes me so proud every day.
Also as if my week needed a cherry on top, my primary computer totally died, and will take three weeks to get back in – so yes, that means since I can’t process orders this week, I’ll think up some sort of sale to celebrate my being back up and running. If you’ve already placed an order I’ve got those files competed and they were not on that hard drive – those orders are find – I just can’t make any NEW ones. So if you haven’t ordered from your session (Stephaine I am looking at you) new sale time would be a good time.
Thank you for all the well wishes, all of them have been received and I hear you and I am grateful for your words and prayers!
Your awesome-ness knows no bounds.