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OkaySo what ever bug I had on Wed, came back to knock me out yesterday – I was too frustrated and not focused to catch it before it came back so I was down again for the night.

Spoken came by and brought me some ginger ale. Sat on my feet to warm ‘em up and made bad jokes for a while with me before she went off to be the single chick.

Bri put her little chubby hands on my face and sighed her little milk breath in my face and went to sleep with me. Cammy came in to check on me a bunch of times.

I got a great little family.

So I am much better this morning internets thank you for the comments on yesterday and for the lack of pity.

My mom is now in Philly with my sister. We dropped her off at the airport yesterday to wait for a standby flight, she only had to wait until one in the afternoon to get a flight so she was holding miss Sophia by seven pm.

I’ve been trying to get my mom to JUST GO see the baby since I got back after thanksgiving. There have been so many very, very major things going on but for me nothing is more major than my sisters expanding family. I have always been of the mind set that family comes first. (and it is totally my moms fault that I am this way BTW) Friends are a close second and everything else will take care of itself. So I’ve been beating this horse to get my mom on a plane to Philly, and at last she is there, to properly shower my neicey and my sister with all the attention that she pours on her grandchildren. And I know I probably annoyed the crap out of her to get her there, but she needed to go and my sister needed her there and Sophia needed to meet her.

So she only got passed up for one flight and had to do a little sprint to catch the connecting flight. So she calls me this morning, bight and early to tell me shes been holding Sophia all day and all night and how happy she is that she came, and how sad she is that she didn’t get to kiss Cammy before she left – and I’m waiting for it, cause you know its coming, right?

And she sounding an awful lot like Jaelithe’s comment just said she doesn’t think I’m taking care of myself well enough and she’s worried that with the weight gain in the last few years, and the stresses my life contains I won’t be around. She said I’m the familys heart. She thinks I do the good thing every time. She said they are the analytical ones,  and she just wants to make sure Jerry and I are around for a long time. And I know that she thinks highly of both Jerry and I- although I disagree with her on the whole heart thing – I think that is Granny Dell – I am not a good as she thinks I am. But that s neither here nor there, I just think perhaps yesterday was my day to blow up.

But apparently the grapevine is alive and well and something I was prepared to just let go of – WONT FRACKIN DIE!!! But I will not be deterred.

I’ve flooded my day with music – the Hidden Beach Records website has a player in it that plays random tracks from the artists on the label. Can I just say while most of the artists are stereotypical of the music like – I love damn near all the artists, especially Kindred the Family Soul, a nifty husband and wife team.

Anyway I am fighting my way back to the Christmas Spirit. I’ve resolved to never say or use X-mas as a term. And I am baking cookies today DAMN IT!! If it’s the last thing I do!